I intend on keeping this deviant and checking it, but I am now starting a new account for all of my litterary artworks

my new account is

go add me!!!^^

*ps- the mood changer is failing to load soz... ya...*

oops, I missed alot of my fears the first time through...

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.

[x] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[] being a parent
[] giving birth
[] being myself in front of others
[x] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[] heights
[] dogs
[] birds
[] fish
[] spiders
[] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 4

[] being touched
[] fire
[x] deep water
[] snakes
[] silk
[] the ocean
[x] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[x] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[x] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[] rats
[] jumping from high places
[] snow

Total so far: 8

[] rain
[] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[] death
[] heaven
[] being robbed
[] falling
[x] clowns
[x] dolls
[] large crowds of people
[] men
[] women
[] having great responsibilities
[x] doctors, including dentists
[] tornadoes

Total so far: 12

[] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[x] ghosts
[] poverty
[] Halloween
[] school
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[x] being alone
[] becoming blind
[] becoming deaf
[x] growing up

Total so far: 16

[x] creepy noises in the night
[] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[xxx] needles
[] blood
[] dinosaurs
[] the welcome mat
[] high speed
[X] throwing up
[X] falling in love
[] super secrets

Total: 23 (21 if you dont count the needles as 3)

great... I'm paranoid...

alrighty, here is my conflict. Every one of my friends, except Melissa, has decided that shelby is a terrible person and I should stay away from him. But, here is my argument in his deffence.

Look at Eric... You all love him. He is a saint in your eyes... Well, HE THREATENED TO RAPE ME!!!! DO YOU PEOPLE NOT CARE ABOUT THAT!?!?!?! HE HAS DONE EVERY DRUG HE CAN GET HIS HANDS ON!!!!! HE BURNED MY NAME INTO HIS WRISTS LAST YEAR!!! HE TRIED TO KILL HIMSELF BECAUSE HE OBVIOUSLY DIDNT CARE ABOUT YOU PEOPLE ENOUGH TO RELISE THAT LIFE IS WORTH LIVING!!!!

And sure, Shelby is not a virgin. And yes, he smokes cigarettes. And yes, he has smoked pot. But, the majority of 17 (almost 18) year olds, are not virgins, and the majority of 17 (almost 18) year olds have smoked pot at least once in their life.

You people hate shelby when people you love do the same sins, and at even worse levels. Shelby never has, and never will, cheat on a girl, none the less threaten to rape a girl. Shelby has smoked cigarettes, I am pretty certain at least one of each of your reletives smokes or has smoked at some point. And, look at all of your friends, your family members, your older siblings and parents, your cousins and your aunts, your uncles and even your grandparents have done the same things that Shelby has done. So don't get mad at shelby for doing things that you are completely fine with when other people do it.

That is my lesson. Listen to my words, AND STOP YOUR IGNORANCE!!!!!!

Tire Swing by:Kimya Dawson

I took the Polaroid down in my room
I'm pretty sure you have a new girlfriend
it's not as if I don't like you
it just makes me sad whenever I see it
'cause I like to be gone most of the time
and you like to be home most of the time
if I stay in one place I lose my mind
I'm a pretty impossible lady to be with

Joey never met a bike that he didn't wanna ride
and I never met a Toby that I didn't like
Scotty liked all of the books that I recommended
even if he didn't I wouldn't be offended

I had a dream that had to drive to Madison
to deliver a painting for some silly reason
I took a wrong turn and ended up in Michigan
Paul Baribeau took me to the giant tire swing
gave me a push and he started singing
I sang along while I was swinging
the sound of our voices made us forget everything
that had ever hurt our feelings

Joey never met a bike that he didn't wanna ride
and I never met a Toby that I didn't like
Scotty liked all of the books that I recommended
even if he didn't I wouldn't be offended
…wouldn't be offended


now I'm home for less than twenty-four hours
that's hardly time to take a shower
hug my family and take your picture off the wall
check my email write a song and make a few phone calls
before it's time to leave again
I've got one hand on the steering wheel
one waving out the window
if I'm a spinster for the rest of my life
my arms will keep me warm on cold and lonely nights

Joey never met a bike that he didn't wanna ride
and I never met a Toby that I didn't like
Scotty liked all of the books that I recommended
even if he didn't I wouldn't be offended

I am very sad.

I dont understand why I feel the way I do about Shelby... Its like, when I am not with him or he forgets to call me, I feel so crushed. He, fortunatly, never forgets to call me. Except for today... He said he would call me tonight, but it is 10:08 and he has still failed to call me... It saddens me greatly.

The even weirder part of these feelings is that, when I am with him, I have never felt more happy in my entire life! Its like, I just love to be around him! And, I love to see him. And, I love to kiss him; not gross "make out" kissing, but like, a short sweet peck on the lips. Or on the cheek. He makes me so happy.

I think i love him...

Anyone else but you
BY: The Moldy Peaches

You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't, you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I will find my nitch in your car
With my mp3 dvd rumple-packed guitar
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du

Up up down down left right left right b a start
Just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

You are always trying to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
You want more fans, i want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Don quixote was a steel driving man
My name is adam i'm your biggest fan
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Squinched up your face and did a dance
You shook a little turd out of the bottom of your pants
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du
But you

ya.... dennis and i decided to take sometime off- and he got a new gf after 5 minutes of no longer being my bf- so

i have no problem what-so-ever dating someone new, also! his name is shelby, jaime hates him- but u know what, jaime, please, i know you only want what is best for me, but i know what im doing, im not going to do anything stupid, and i have learned from my mistakes- i am finally understanding what you all have been telling me all year, and i do understand. please, just trust me this time

oh, and i feel really bad, since ive been so intense with colorgaurd and my old boyfriend, im sort of happy that both have ended. The reason for this being that now that colorgaurd is over, i have more time for friends. And, now that i have a boyfriend that goes to a different school, i can spend more time talking to my friends in the morning!!!^^ so, in the end, i guess it was a good thing to start over. It was just the right time. I still regret it, tho... but i am trying to see the light in this conflict...


Facinating New Thing BY: Semisonic

Fascinating new thing
you delight me
and i know your speaking of me
fascinating new thing
get beside me i want you to love me

chorus
suprised that you've never been told before
that your lovely and your perfect
and that somebody wants you

fascinating new thing
you seem naked
on a temporary circuit
fascinating new thing
don't betray them
by becoming familiar

chorus (followed by)
i'm suprised that you've never been told before
that your pricless
yeah, your precious even when you are not new
la la la.....
repeat chorus
that your priceless
yeah your holy ene when you are not new

alright